switching internet providers in the next few days so will probably be without a connection for a week or so. on the upside, once we've changed we should get speeds higher than 0.3mb for most of the day.

still.. *braces self*



see you on the other side

mood: tired tags: internet

sometimes when I'm at a busy train station, somewhere big with the noisy trains like King's Cross, I feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because: I have something to say.

mood: drunk meets cheerful tags: kate nash, lyrics, profound stuff

I don't understand where time goes. if it weren't for my birthday i would swear june never happened this year :|


to make myself feel better, a list of things I have done since I've been back:


spent a month trying to get my car fixed, MOT'd and taxed
cleaned and tidied the the kitchen about 5 times
tidied my bedroom, made enough space for my drums
got a part time job
went up to leicester to sort out things for the house
crocheted a hat

..that's really pathetic.


also watched a lot of tv. I hate tv; it's such an attention-sucker. I was so much more productive when i was living away from home and didn't even have one. the only downside was that because I don't read newspapers I had no real idea about current events which was er.. embarassing on a couple of occasions.


i need to do more reading; I have a book I started before easter that i've shamefully been using to prop up my laptop. I was also going to use the summer months to catch up on the course reading I didn't get done last term, not to mention desdemonhu, who I still haven't got back to *headdesk*


right! I've written a to do list, I'm gonna get some things ticked off


laters


ETA: I know i'm not supposed to be wasting time but I want one of THESE:

Akai EWIUSB Blows In To NAMM Show


and only £300!!! cheaper than buying a saxophone


...right, back to productivity now.

music: florence and the machine tags: leicester, this is why i suck, to do list

You ever get that feeling that you don't look the same on the outside as you feel (though this pains me to say it) on the inside? Do you ever look at your reflection and think it doesn't look quite right? Maybe I'm thinking too much about self image, but I've been doing a lot of experimenting with my appearance lately. examples: revamping my wardrobe, bleaching my hair and (as anyone who follows me on facebook might know) getting my lip pierced.

Now, this most recent development has caused some controversy among pretty much everyone who knows me. Reactions have ranged, due to the fact that I didn't post a bulletin about it, from compliments to cringing. Surprisingly enough, some people didn't actually notice it (said they'd thought I'd had one for ages anyway - indication that it doesn't look stupid/out of place? who knows.). Everyone seems to have an opinion about it, but not everyone has been polite about it.

I'm fine with people expressing opinions, but seriously, there is no need to be rude just because you disagree. Besides, it's my lip, so who's damn business is it? What I'm trying to say here is that if you're not closely related to me, your opinion of what I look like is unlikely to hit first place on my priority list. And even then, there are exceptions.

This was not a spur of the moment action. I put quite a bit of thinking time into this decision, worrying about how it would interfere with my music, if it would look right, if it would damage my teeth, if it would hurt, if my mother would hate it, if it would get infected, if it would stop me getting a job--

if if if.

Eventually, I came to the conclusion of 'fuckit. do it. THEN worry about the consequences if they occur'. You can't live your life if you're too busy fretting about everything that could possibly go wrong in any situation ever. You also can't live your life if you're concerned about what other people will think of your decisions.


so yeah. those are my thoughts on the matter.

mood: tired tags: lip, rant

moved back home over two weeks ago, and I'm still unpacking. there is no room for any of my stuff, and the only solution is a mass clear out of.. crap, essentially:

oh hello, primary school uniform why are you still in my wardrobe? how many stuffed animals do I need, really? and what's this? ah right, more rocks. why is it that I collected rocks as a child...?

at least that was the plan. somehow the amount of stuff I throw away is not proportionate to the amount of space generated in its wake. I'm still unclear on how that one works.




in other news: christ, I'll be 21 soon.

tags: 21, moving, ramble

wow sunshine makes all the difference to my mood, it seems. it's been warm and lovely all day so my flatmate and I went out to feed the ducks this afternoon. good times.

I just wanted to make a journal entry where I'm not complaining or being miserable :)


will either be scarce or highly prevalent in the coming weeks; I have a lot of work to do; but I don't know if I'm going to be good about it and get on with it




oh also: I said about junk food being rubbish in the last post, have been munching on the following in a vague attempt to be healthy:

iceberg lettuce in tortilla wrap with cottage cheese and salsa yumyumyum (point of note; try and keep the two sauces separate :/ )

also: natual yoghurt with grapes and things mmm

music: nada tags: good mood, good times

I have made an interesting discovery:

when you are twenty and living on your own it is no longer quite as much fun buying things like mini rolls/cheesestrings/pringles that your mum wouldn't let you have when you were younger

they also taste pretty crappy.


in lieu of this kind of fun, I should point out you can buy alcohol.

music: nuthin' tags: ramble

nicked from gogoangelgunboy:


- Describe me in one word- just one single word. Positive or negative.
- Leave your word in a comment, before looking at what words others have used.
- Copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people describe you when limited to one word.


aaand.. go!

mood: awake tags: meme

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cpSv2mNhhc

this is fucking with my head at the moment.

in a good way :D


so much emotion, but there's barely anything there. less is more. it's like what those pink floyd guys were saying about leaving gaps. play for half a bar then do nothing for a bar and a half.


I'm surrounded by so much it's hard to take it all in, hearing so much new music, so many new ideas in lectures. it's crazy.

can't stay for long, but thought I really should share that with you guys

( oh! also.. )

mood: lightweight music: anything and everything tags: crazy, music, uni

I'm here, it's going okay

turns out the world didn't end after all

mood: calm tags: uni

I've got to start doing some crazy stuff. bleach my hair, cover my body in tattoos, something like that.


also: need to look into getting a railcard. and a passport. spontaneity is key.

tags: crazy, ramble, uni

extravagance these days is going for a drive purely for the sake of driving.

HA! I laugh in the face of extortionate petrol prices!


then I walk to work.





catch you on the flip, yo


.

music: kate nash/shiny toy guns tags: driving, petrol

just checking in really. hate to leave big gaps after emo entries.

so.. I have my room reserved for september. big ol' weight off the shoulders that is. got my first choice too so that's pretty awesome.

still to sort out:

all the stuff I have to take with me (clothes, cooking stuff, clarinet and blah)
car insurance
bank account (overdraft and that)


and plenty more i have yet to panic about.

mood: cheerful tags: panic, uni

huh.


have y'all seen this?

tags: blackle

roight so scouring youtube for some popular stuff at the moment. top songs for the here and now include:




hhhhaaaahhamanahamanahamana. I mean wow. what's not to love about this, come on. top hats and canes, guys.



and this, which I heard a little while ago and has now appeared with a video which also = love:




also, sad song time:




and now for something completely different, purely for comedic effect:





see y'all next week

music: see above tags: music, youtube

(doesn't that just make you go aww?)

mood: websurfy tags: youtube

thought I should collate some classics:

The End of the World
it's kind of offensive but all kinds of awesome


The Demented Cartoon Movie
pretty long, but absolutely hilarious. really:
we are close now,when we shine the light on the--
zeeky boogie dook!
oh, crap



Weebl & bob
..possibly only funny if you're 13. also makes more sense if you watch the earlier ones


anyone want to weigh in with some more..?

music: music in my head tags: best of the internet

I wish I wasn't such a child
but what good would that do
it's far more sensible to wish
that wishes would come true


***

DeMontfort interview tomorrow.

mood: anxious tags: poem, r is for, uni

I'm in my room, listening to Paolo Nutini, and feeling as though everything is very temporary.

I don't understand some people, like one minute you think you're the same but then it becomes painfully clear you are in fact polar opposites. it's crazy

on the up, though, it looks like I'm going out for New Year's Eve after all. I keep telling myself this year will be better, I hope this time it will be.

mood: ...*blink*... music: These Streets tags: melancholy feeling, nye, r is for